Foster/Adopt Process Update

Many months have passed and my family have been able to accomplish so many things. My husband and I completed the parenting classes that was offered through the county. And we completed all the live scans, doctor visits, initial paper work, and exit interview. We just had our home inspected by the state.  Now, we wait for our adoption worker and the home study to begin.   Even though we have made it through so many steps through out this process, we still have a long way to go.  But, I am getting more excited for this new path we are now on. Our house is ready for another little one. The bed is set up in the room waiting. Our daughter is so eager to share her toys. Our hearts are open and ready to love.

I walk pass the room every night and see the crib set up. My heart beats faster. My thoughts begin to race.  What does God have in store for us?  Will a baby enter our lives? Or a little 4 year old girl? We brought a convertible crib just in case. We try to be ready for whatever God has planned but it would definitely be a lot easier if He at least gave us hints along the way.  :)

Much love to the world,


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View of the ocean in San Diego



First Friday Night of March

Happy Friday everyone. 
My Friday ended with a stomach full of cake and ice cream.   “What is the celebration?” , you might ask…   Well, we all survived this crazy week.  :)  :) 
I guess this week was not crazier than any other week but it was sure good to eat our delicious cake made by my daughter and I. Plus yummy homemade banana ice cream made by my husband.  I always prefer banana ice cream over store brought ice cream. It is simple to make and delicious.  You definitely need to try it if you haven’t already.

So this week, my husband and I actually finished all the applications for the foster/adopt program.  I know this is only the beginning. But I am happy that we are taking steps forward. 
On to the child development classes, CPR, and physical exams/tests….
I understand why we need to take these steps in our journey. It might be time consuming but it is great that the county is trying to weed out the people who just don’t get what being a parent is. It is great for everyone to be up-to-date on raising and protecting a child.
But I honestly think these classes (child development and CPR) should be a requirement for anyone who might be getting pregnant or for parents before they take their baby home.  Just think about how many things could have been prevented if people only knew…

As I was hanging up my daughter’s clothes today, I was scanning her closet and realized that she might be sharing her closet with another child soon. And I wondered how she would feel about sharing her closet which is full of clothes and toys. So I asked. (We are very open about this while process with her.)  She replied to me that she wants to share her whole room and she wants a sister to sleep in the room too. 
I have been really amazed by how much she is ready for this road ahead of us.  She is so eager to open her heart and her life to share with other children. I know this is God’s doing. He has a purpose for my daughter. He has given her so much strength and understanding even though she is still so young. 

Much love to the world,

March is Here

Goodbye February. Hello March. Please be good to us.

My daughter has been asking for a sibling for a long time now… Specifically, a brother, a sister and a baby.

She has no idea just how much my heart cries a little every time she questions us about how much longer. Or when she is playing and then all of a  sudden, makes comments referring to what will happen when she gets to play with her brother, sister and baby.  I know she is ready for our family to grow. I am ready too.
We talk to her about the process and how long it will take.  But she does not understand the timeline. Which makes it harder for her eager mind. 
I wish so much that this process would be easier. I wish I could just get pregnant and have my 10 kids that I always wanted.  I wish that I could make K a big sister just like she truly wants.   But, God has other plans. And another timeline.
I know I will never fully understand His plans and I do not know what the future holds, but I do hope to see my house full of little children running around one day. One day soon.
We are still going through the Foster/Adopt paperwork. It is a lot of questions about life, family, health, and childhood.  It really makes you think about the quality of life when you were growing up.  Almost like getting a free therapy session. Hahaha. Just kidding. 
One thing that I have loved about all the paperwork was bonding more with my husband. Sharing memories, life trials, future dreams. Planning ahead.  I have always loved talking to him over all 15 years of knowing each other. Having him by my side will forever keep me strong. 

Much love to the world,

Starting the Process Again

It has been awhile since I posted about our steps in becoming a family. I know you all understand how life just seems to never slow down.
Well, we started the process again for the foster to adopt program in our county.  First step was orientation. Next is all the paperwork. We are just in the very beginning of this new road to expand our family. I am, of course, nervous. But my heart is calm knowing that we are moving in the right direction.
Our daughter, who is now 5, is also ready for this journey. Over the last year, she has been asking for a brother, sister and a baby. My husband and I sat down with her to make sure she understood the process that we must go through. The lengthy process. She is really excited and wishes that this process was not so long. 
I am amazed to see how open she is to sharing her room. Her toys. She has so much compassion. And constantly shows how much she loves to help with babies. I can tell that she is strong mentally for this new road in our lives.
Please keep us in your thoughts/prayers to support all of us in this new journey. 
I hope everyone is doing great wherever  they are on their own personal journey.

Much love to the world,

Best of Me Movie Review and Life

Be prepared… There are semi spoilers ahead…. 

I ran into this movie today while scanning  Netflix. And I was curious to see it since it is based on a book from Nicholas Sparks. I do own a couple of his books and enjoy reading them. But I have never read this particular one.  I wish I had though. I would have never watched the movie.

Not because it is an awful movie; but because it has a heart breaking sad ending. And I hate endings that are not “Happily Ever After…”.  I was not prepared for this sad ending. My heart is still trying to cope with it.

The movie itself is wonderful. Great plot even though I can not personally see myself as the main female character. I can relate to her with how much one person can love another. But I can not relate to how she could marry someone she truly did not love and suffer all these years with someone she grew to hate.

The beginning was so touching to see how this man saved this teenager instead of calling the cops on him. You hardly see these situations nowadays.  People just do not trust runaway teenagers.  But this man had a huge heart. And because of his heart, Dawson was able to live out his purpose in life.

It just makes you think just how much just one person can influence the rest of your life.

Where you ever in a situation where you thought you had no where else to go? At the last breath you might be taking? A time when your dreams were completely crushed? 

What happened? Did someone save you just as this man saved Dawson? Or maybe it was just a chance encounter with a stranger?

There is a purpose to our lives. There is an end of our path that is already mapped out. It is scary to think that we truly have no control since we are all destined for something. All we can do is live the best as we can with the life that we are given.

I do hope, though, that my life will have  something very meaningful to come out of it.

The movie touches on a lot of major life topics that are great discussion subjects.  Love, first date, lost loves, horrible parents, child abuse, rich vs poor, education, cancer, child loss, loving a child that is not blood related, beautiful set locations, gardening, etc. The list goes on and on.  And I could write a book if I wrote about each one.

Overall this is a great movie with good beautiful actors. The actors were able to make us visualize just how pure their love was. And the love between a true “parent” and child was spot on. 

Great movie. But would I watch this again? Sadly, no. Just because there is already too much pain in real life that I go to movies to escape it. And this movie did not help me escape from pain. Only added more sadness.

Much love to the world,

Shine So Bright

Shine So Bright
Star light.
Star bright.
Amazing night.
Amazing sight.
Up above,
So high in height.
My dreams and wants,
Take wishful flight.
Could it be that easy,
For my dreams to come true?
Of course not,
When pain and struggles are due.
We must pay the price,
For our wants and demands.
Wake up from these dreams,
And the fairytale lands.
Live strong.
Live smart.
Your are the artist,
And life is your art.
Create your own stars.
Create your own light.
Make your own life,
Shine so bright.
By: Angie Velasquez 2016